road back

i am asking you nicely please dont make me go back to the place i used to be, i dont think i will be able to survive if the old habits return. please no. im begging you dont go. i dont want to go back to how it used to be, i dont want to have to live in fear and lie about where i have been and what i have been doing. im begging you no. please dont go. im scared to go back, i dont want to. i cant do this. i am heading back down the road.